Thoughts

For those who know that my friend Wayne Bowyer contacted gilliam berea' syndrome I was able to visit with him again today in Lynchburg. He is almost completely off the respirator and when he is he can talk. His wife, Donna, was there and a friend of Wayne's came in while I was there. We had a nice time together considering the circumstances. Wayne is very tired of being in bed, as anyone who has been in one recovering from anything major understands. The doctors believe at his current rate of recovery he may be back to full function in a year. From what I have seen in my three visits to Lynchburg I think it may be substantially less.I was very encouraged today.

With him no longer needing the respirator and other changes they may be moving him again to a less critical care facility. It would be real nice if they would move him closer to home so his wife, mother, daughter and grandchildren could see him easier. Lynchburg isn't a terrible drive, very pleasant in fact, but it is about and hour and 45 minutes.

Still not completely where I want to be at work yet. Still need to fine tune some of my work habits and help some of my associates to step forward and do more. I am frustrated. I have managed other people in far more stressful environments and haven't had to coax my people along like a mother hen. I realize I dwelt with professionals before, but this job now is so simple I don't understand why they don't grasp the basics. Just need to be clearer I guess in my instructions.

Right now I have a much heavier weight on my heart. I have two friends who I thought I had a good relationship with who seem to not need to keep in touch. Maybe I am just an old foggie and not with it so to speak, but I really miss my friends. My friend in Peru has stayed in touch over the years, about 25 or so since she went so far away. There have been times of long periods of silence between us, but we always catch up and always have such sweet exchanges. I have another friend that lives in a neighboring state that seems to have dropped off the communication wire somehow as well. I have not reached out myself in a while, I guess I need to do that.

But two who are so much a part of my life and huge in my memories are not answering emails. I know one is very busy, the other, I just don't know. I am so afraid I've done or said something very stupid and they have taken offense. I am not sure how to correct it, however.

One of my best friends told me one time there are two kinds of friends. One kind comes into your life for a little while, and because of changes in one or both of your lives falls away to be replaced with other friends. Then there are friends who are friends for life, no matter where life takes you. I may have blurred the lines a bit and want to hold on to all my friends like they are in the second group. And that may be unrealistic.

But this evening I am sad and a little down because I haven't heard from a couple lately. I won't let it keep me down, one should never pin their own happiness to someone else, but it would be real sweet to hear from them.

Now my friend Barb is out of touch sometimes because she is off on amazing adventures which she tries to turn into income, and seems to be doing a pretty good job of it. I know why she is silent at times. Her silence just build excitement in me for when she breaks the silence and tells me about the adventures!!