I suppose it was inevitable, but I really didn’t see it coming. I have read myself out. At the moment I don’t believe I care if anyone understands the things I have found or not. I know I need to distill it all down and end up with some concise elements that fully describe why I believe the doctrine of original sin is flawed and non biblical. But that process will take me some time. Time that I am jealous of right now. Time for which I do not have the dendritic energy. It will have to wait. Right now it is taking everything I have to keep up at work.
I am at a crossroads in my life that is tearing me apart emotionally and mentally. It has become front and center in my focus, putting everything else secondary. And that isn’t good for the other things. It is a crossroads that has no clear map ahead. It’s like coming to a place in a journey that hasn’t been mapped before. Many have gone past this crossing, but because every life is different their map is not valid for my progress. Coupled with the fact that time is running out on this decision creates a great sense of failure in me. I have several options in the direction I go from here, but I don’t feel that I have much time to decide. And hasty decisions scare me.
So even work is suffering. Work demands everything of me right now, and I am just not able to give it everything.
So for now, my journey into OS and theology in general is taking a backseat. I am sure I’ll pick it up again. And maybe I will have had time to distill it a bit.
Thanks for coming along.
